today's my first rest day after soo long... the 2 weeks at borders were hectic albeit short... everyday seemed to pass by in a blur... it's either waking up at 6am, or reaching home at 1am and ugh... it's super draining and tiring..for one, i din have time to talk to God... it's always rushed.. and i usually fall asleep after a while.. and secondly, i'm like soo tired i would rather juz spend any spare time sleeping. it's an irony though... i'm relieved, and sad at the same time... relieved that i can finally have time to myself.. to plan my day.. to have some kind of structure back in my life, but sad that the time at borders have come to an end... i've grown to really really like the ppl there.. not all, but most of them. the job itself does suck... the pay's crap, standing for 9 hours straight is no mean feat too.... but the ppl and the culture of the place are things i'll definitely miss...

the staff are all so expressive... so forthcoming and so real.... they do not see a need to put on a mask...if they're unhappy with you, they'll juz say it out. i learnt alot there... not so about the admin part of it.. but more of the relational part. it was also my first time working in a place where chinese seemed the minority. haha... at the start, i was ashamed to say tt i was juz tt tad bit uncomfortable. haha.. then afterward, i was more like.. juz heck it.. and started talking to them. there were no airs.. no pretences...the staff is like one huge family.. even with the managers and GM. everyone calls everybody by names... even the managers help out in the shelving, sorting, and cashiering when the place gets busy... and EVEN in the answering of calls.. i love them.. truly i do... there are so many tt left an impression on me... i was so touched when this gal i was working with for a few days gave me a hug juz before i left borders yest... .. coz of the sincerity of the hug..the managers too... none gave me a hard time.. and helped me whenever i asked.haiz... i was truly reluctant to leave...

at 9pm, i left with a heavy heart.. haha.. i certainly did not expect to have grown so attached to the place and the ppl in so short a time. but looking back, i do wish i can at least stay on a month... in juz 2 weeks, i've learnt alot about myself. at least now i know tt i do not want a job where my weekends will have to be sacrificed.. some things are definitely more important. like cell grp and church for example. i'm also convinced tt i want t a job tt allows me to deal with ppl, not things. i've realised tt i truly enjoy interacting with ppl, talking to them... and wat made me feel really good is when a customer sincerely thanked me on helping them find wat they wanted. goes to show tt i want a job tt gives me gratification.. and i still have no idea wat tt job will be. love the interaction, love the talking.... and thru this job, i've realised juz how little i know... so dun give me any crap abt how good a uni degree is... seriously. i feel so dense sometimes.. when faced with ppl who are truly capable and you juz know tt they are some big shots in their respective companies. and i'm gonna be one of the nice ones when i become a big shot too. haha. no putting on airs and talking with an accent and coming down hard on ppl. coz i've been thru it and it feels like CRAP!!! =p all in all, it's been an eventful 2 weeks... and if not for the fact tt my mom's office needed someone to take over the job, i would have stayed till the end of june. AT LEAST. =)

♥ jacq

JACQUELINE NG
birthday: 6th September!!
was from Anglican High, Victoria JC, NUS...
newly graduated...
in SATS


Quote of the week:
Challenges often make us realize that we are stronger than we think. -chelle thompson


I am who You say I am

A happy me is when I am surrounded by my family and close friends, doing things that i love!
trying to always be happy and cheerful...
despite the circumstances though at times i can be sad like mad.
currently trying to get to know myself better.
Oone thing for sure that i know, i love shopping and it's proven to be therapeutic!
loves challenges.. they make me think.
love a good bicker here and there. they make me think too!
also love the sun loads! anything outdoor works for me... though i still prefer blading to cycling or running.