in deep thoughts......

currently having a lot of thoughts flowing through my mind.... i always feel like this when i talk to eugene. is tt good or bad? i used to think he was biased and negative and superly backsliding from God... but the recent image i have of him is so.. totally opposite from the earlier impression i had of him.

just who is God to me? that's a question i have to find out for myself... wat's my vision for speedlight? sometimes i thought i knew the answers. or at least part of it.. but sometimes, i really don't know. was just sharing with my cell today wat i think loving God with all our heart, soul and mind means... have been so inspired by the book i'm reading now. it's called drawing near (by John Bevere). i know i should have read it long ago.. but it took me so long to convince myself tt i needed to start on it again. there are some thought provoking questions as well... made me think how much i've compromised my values and standards.. to fit into the mould of the world and not of God's. i'm not proud to say this.

wat does loving God entail? gd question. the book mentioned that since time past, God wants to know us.. INTIMATELY. just as the analogy that ernie gave, the relationship we have with God should be that of you and a best friend. u wanna know wat he/she thinks... at times, u can read each other's minds.. abraham knew God..so did moses... so did paul. y should we settle for anything less? we don't need a priest to stand in the gap for us anymore.. Jesus has done that for us.. yet, y are we all still drawing away from God? God wants us to draw near.. to hear His heartbeat.. to know His thoughts. and to know His great love. and so many of us missed out on all this... simply because we look to God for His many blessings and gifts.. and not to Him.

loving God with all our heart, soul, mind... it's easy to say... hard to do. it means spending quality time with God.. it means spending time reading and understanding His word.. it means doing the right thing.. it means alienating yourself fm the world and its standards and set a higher standard for yourself. God's standard. and to do all of this not because of sheer knowledge that it is right, but cos u sincerely fear God.. to want to delight in the things that are of God.. and to walk away from wat's not of Him. for better is one day in His courts.. than a thousand elsewhere. BUT how many can sincerely say tt? how many can say tt they've experienced the reality of God? cos when tt happens.. lives are touched.. lives are invariably changed.. how many are thirsty for that kinda touch? so many christians have the form.. but not the power.. me inclusive. we ought to have the form, AND the power..

my vision of spdlight...

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to see lives touched and changed.. to see fervent worship. to see spdlighters literally queue up to attend service.. to see youths hungry for the touch of God. to truly persist in worship and say that they will not be satisfied unless the spirit of God moves.

in the manifested presence of God.. who can stand and remain impassive?

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still thinking

New Clothes! Jackets, tops, jeans
BAGS

Get a job that i like
strengthen my friendships
exercise!! so need it...

ipod video!
PSP? thinks hard.








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