Friday, January 05, 2007 @12:22 AM
31 December 2006
the last day of the year or the start of a new yr?
2006 has been a roller-coaster year... i've experienced joys, sorrows, heartaches, love and goodness knows wat else in extreme portions... In retrospect, i guess i've grown... older definitely... wiser? but emotionally, mentally... tasted some aspects of life i rather not have...
this yr also marks the turning point of my life as a student to a working adult.. literally a year of change.. guess i'm still not used to it.. someone once told me to give myself at least 1 yr to adjust to work life.. i scoffed at tt comment then.. only to realise there's some truth in it now. hah
i miss the freedom that accompanies a student.. i miss the close friendships.. i miss the carefree and laid-back life... the impromptu plans... with the constrains of time, i have to plan ahead... and spread my free time to so many different grps of ppl.. and with work kicking in.. i haven't seen some of my close friends for the longest time! yes, geo. i'm talking abt u. =p
and in the midst of it all.. God and church seem so far away. =( to top it off.. i actually missed Christmas service this yr! =(( tt's my biggest regret.. was kinda affected by it.. cos Christmas din seem the same without celebrating it in church i guess... the first year of my life i missed the service. how sad can tt get?!
31 dec came shortly after... time seems to fly by when i'm at work.. for a period, i knew neither time nor day. it was simply.. work. i was really quite glad i forced myself to plan for leaders' countdown though.. told GOd i wanted to see it through.. and prayed that it will go smoothly. and really thank GOd for seeing me through.. cos of the tight schedule and work and all. despite it all, i had a great time fellowshipping with the rest of the leaders.. though i had most fun with the gals. haha. alot of games that i've planned for weren't used.. but heck.. i had fun still. =) and i guess, it's just enough to celebrate as a whole community like tt.. =)
the only blimp on the nice pretty picture is that 31 dec also marks the date one yr ago when i broke up. at tt point, i thought i was pretty strong.. who knows it turned out otherwise. hah. seems like i chose the wrong date to break up.. cos this is such a prominent date! oh wells... i just want to move on.. get on with life and see how God leads.. won't pretend to say i wasn't affected... the tears came.. the tears dried. but all in all... i have progressed...and from all these, i see my true friends.. ppl who stuck by me thru out this period. thanks dears...u're very much loved by me! =)
finally, as per all new year preparations... the resolutions must be set in place..
for the coming new year, i want:
1. to spend more time resting in Him...
2. focus on career and work
3. do smth different. like going for my french course!
4. save more!
5. be punctual. haha.
so ta-daah... my thoughts for the new year.