Sunday came.. sunday went. how ironic that i'm blogging at exactly 12 midnight.

to awake mon morn... console myself that time will pass quickly... to midweek to the much awaited weekend... day after day.. week after week. caught up in this rat race.... is that the way life is meant to be lived?

i dun think so! if life was so.. wouldn't it be meaningless? going after the same things day in day out... i much rather think life IS exciting... opportunities unfold.. love unfolds... beauty unfolds.. and GOd's love too... i value life.. my life too... friends, family.. wat have u. as i grow older... i sense myself becoming more cynical.. and once a while.. such reality checks put me back in perspective once again... God would want more for us than such a life.. we ARE meant to enjoy life... no doubt the pain and sorrow once a while.. who said growing up's easy? but thereafter comes the joy and the pride of accomplishment.

in retrospect... i have come a long way... still a long way to go.. but comparing me to the naive and ignorant gal i was many yrs ago... hmm... *smiles* my cell member calls me mommy ok??!! =p and i actually revel in it. =) no, no.. no complaints. saw one of my previous cell leader at covenant evangelical free church today... and juz came to realise that BOTH my previous cell leaders are at CEFC! oh my! wat's with them and this church?! and anywayz... i realised that i miss ALL of them!! they are the ones that make up my childhood in speedlight.. they helped me grow.. and they were the ones i looked up to.. they showed me how to worship.. they taught me God.. and yet.. i see one after another leaving this ministry.. to some extent, it saddens me. yet they still hold on to hope.. hope that some things will change for the better in speedlight.. and till now i wonder.. y not persevere a bit more? sighs. there are no right or wrong answers.. just a lot of emotions... and i find myself wondering.. will i go where my predecessors go? or will i stay?

for now.. i am content to stay. i hold on to hope.. and faith that things will change. and i want to be there.. to witness the change. to be part of the change. nobel dreams no less... but possible.. possible. =)

♥ jacq

JACQUELINE NG
birthday: 6th September!!
was from Anglican High, Victoria JC, NUS...
newly graduated...
in SATS


Quote of the week:
Challenges often make us realize that we are stronger than we think. -chelle thompson


I am who You say I am

A happy me is when I am surrounded by my family and close friends, doing things that i love!
trying to always be happy and cheerful...
despite the circumstances though at times i can be sad like mad.
currently trying to get to know myself better.
Oone thing for sure that i know, i love shopping and it's proven to be therapeutic!
loves challenges.. they make me think.
love a good bicker here and there. they make me think too!
also love the sun loads! anything outdoor works for me... though i still prefer blading to cycling or running.